Wednesday, November 30, 2005:
waaa. seh. i'm getting too lazy to blog. heh. i think i shall take a break. i dunno what to say here anyway. too much to type. and my fingers are getting spasms. hee. :) i shall take a haitus.
CIAO WORLD
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10:38 PM
Monday, November 28, 2005:
heh. havent had time to blog recently.. alot of things have happened these few days. some stressful, some happy, some sad. but i guess thats just life.. thats all just part of living in this world. but god's not going to let me stray way. i know that.. and i'm going to believe that he's going to be there with me every sec of my way. :)
man. i cant wait for church camp. :)
long week. i better get some rest soon. :) ciao world.
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11:52 PM
Friday, November 25, 2005:
today's a good day. i've decided to blog about the happy stuffs not the sad anymore. its making me feel terrible and gloomy so i've taken somebody's advice to STAY POSITIVE. i can change my mindset. right? :D yes.
wheeee. today passed really quickly.. dean's house to dye hair, holland v to see clem's dad's shop, then to cell, then to the bridge to talk.. today was quite life changing. :) hahhaa. thanks to kaye dean and clem.. :) thanks for the talk thanks for getting stuff out of me, getting it out of my chest., thanks for making me feel better. thanks a whole lot. :) i'm going to be as happy as i can. especially before i leave. hehhhh. :D
seems like everyone's going away these few days.. howard to indo today, sam to bangkok tmr, and shun to the us in 2 hrs, even glenn to the us too, i think tmr.. woahh.. haha. small prequel to my leaving huh. getting used to the fact that i'll be gone. gone from s'pore. no more heart to heart talks. i guess everything's gonna end at some point. but i'll make the most out of it. and i'll be back! right? i'll be back to visit everyone. :) yeppo. I'LL BE BACK. its not forever. :D
tmr's another long day. going to cheer james on in his competition with kaye. the rest cant make it. :S haha. and justin's coming too!!! heheehehe. he cracks really lame jokes. hahah. but he's a nice person to have around. :) okay la. i shall like go sleep soon. its like almost 3 already. :D
safe flight everyone. :) buckle up!
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11:48 PM
Thursday, November 24, 2005:
heh. you know what. all i can say is. i can have my own fun too. so long, partner. life seems to be alot better on your part. and guess what. i'm pretty much getting on with my life too. you've got them and i've got the others. its okay, and i'm okay. take care, old friend.
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10:18 PM
fully day out today.. :) at least i feel loads better than i did yesterday. i'm not going to think about it already. i'm not going to bother being affected by it. i'm okay. and i'll always be okay. :)
tuition class party today! :D howard and i went down early to get the tickets and have lunch first before every one came.. hah. the counter lady thought it was only the two of us and she almost printed 2 when we stopped her and said 8. LOL. she must have gotten such a shock la. haha. but anyway. we watched sky high!!! good show good show.. :D and i think leila (if thats how you spell her name) is SO pretty.. hahah. i still want to watch harry potter. :( nick! sat evening! i'll try to go down with you k!!! haha. so sad you missed today's programme.. we took some neoprints too... haha. was so squeezy in that tiny cubicle that i just gave up and sat out of some shots. :D heee. but it was funn. haa.
went for carolling prac too. confusing singing in parts again. and trying to keep up with the rythm was awful. and i had bouts of laughing seizures when we tried to put the whole song together.. the guys kept singing louder and louder and a certain point so they could overpower us and it was highly amusing. :D
i'm glad i had fun today. sure beat yesterday. some how i wish i didnt find out about that. maybe i would have been happier. so. yeah. i'm better today. i'm always better. heh. thanks clem. :D
to those lost-crazy fans. you nutters. fancy rushing off from carolling prac to go watch some finale. have fun though.
a shout of praise.
10:18 PM
apology to the world - if it makes life any better, i think i'll just keep quiet from now on. i'm going to disappear from your lives slowly, its not going to make a difference anyway.
and to you. dont be sad okay. so ironic how i'm saying this. actually forget it. we can be sad and cry together.
i wish there were still exams. at least i can still bury myself in my books. and study everything away. every feeling can be buried deep in my books, and it'll fuel me to do more. at least i'll get my As. and time is not wasted staring into nothing. and dont the world dare sympathize me. i dont want your sympathy or pity.
i'm going to make it on my own. just you see.
a shout of praise.
1:16 AM
Wednesday, November 23, 2005:
i cant believe it.. you know what. forget the whole thing. seems like i can never be remembered. whats the point of having friends even. they just leave you out, or dont seem to bother about your existence. i think i'll live my life in my own world. and shut every door out. and not let anyone in ever again.
after all, its just 2 months and 3 days left. and i can bloody well leave and not tell anyone and poof. i'm gone and everyone wont know. like they'll care anyway. oh wait. they dont.
a shout of praise.
11:00 PM
Tuesday, November 22, 2005:
heh. and now for today's post. :D
spent the whole day with my mom and my brother today, some family bonding time. haha. my brother was going off to cambodia for a mission trip with my church today see, so we sent him and a few church friends to the airport.. haha. and boy, was the trip there hilarious.. :D hahahha. my brother forgot to bring the MOST IMPORTANT thing for the trip. (you can keep guessing what it is cos i promised not to tell.. hahaha. but boy, was it HIGHLY embarassing. can you guess now? ;) ) hahahhaha. were chris and nick thankful that my mom went to buy extra so they wouldnt have to suffer with him. hahhaa. and guess what!!! the airport has alot of nice nice tiny shops, and i love their mini bits outlet there.. i want these like necklaces and bracelets and earrings! on my gosh! they were so so beauuutiful but so so so not my price range... like this pink beaded necklace.. it was 30 bucks!!! ahhhh. hopefully i can find similar stuff in bangkok. hehe. i'll spend like anything i tell you. haha. (okay i'm exaggerating..)
then then.. after that wasnt that exciting.. went to tighten my braces.. i've chosen christmas colours.. red and green.. :D ahahhaa. cool.. had dinner, visited my mom's friend's family and now i'm back home. wondering what on earth i should do. MANNN. i've got nothing. haha. luckily i had something to do today, otherwise i'd be at home nuahing away like kaye.. hahaha. but anyhow. tmr's PAE! i hope i can get into ac for like the 1st (and last) 3 weeks of my non-existent jc life. haha. and then after that its like bye bye, i'm off to perth.. haha. and i wont be back till april the 15th. ): boohoo. okay, at least its not so bad. i'll have my freedom and i can study in a nag-free environment and boy, am i glad to leave the stressful singapore education system which keeps driving you until you feel like pulling out all your hair. but then, i'll be leaving everyone. ): bahhh. sad story.
oohhh. hhaha. i played an evil prank on some people today, haha. i told them i was leaving singapore and going to perth, cos my mom last minute last night decided to buy a ticket to perth and send me overseas like now. hahhaha. and i was at the airport and leaving already. haha. boy, so many people fell for it. and i'm glad they did, cos i know that they care and i feel touched.. :) hahaha. i hope i get a fan club and when i go off they all be like sobbing and pawing at the glass window begging me not to leave and when i get back they'll bring placards that says "krissy! welcome home!" and "we love you!".. hahhaa. fantasies. hahahha. waaa. i wish... :P but i rather it not happen.. if they cry when i leave i'll feel too sad to go, if they bring placards, i'll be damn embarassed. HAHAHA.
oh ho. and the guys have their grad night tonight. hahaha. wonder how they all look like dressed in their proper shirts and pants.. :) hahhaa. i hope dean brought his camera and took pictures. i wonder if i can die from laughing. might get a heart attack. LOL. and i wonder how james will look like. what with his dyed hair and mohawk haircut.. gosh. so ah beng i tell you.. just like my brother and his horrigible dyed hair. hahah.. and mikey's leaving at dawn tmr! 6am for america.. :( waaa. what will we do with out him.. he's like the protector of us la.. haha. telling the guys off for their uncouth behaviours.. hahaha. wonderful. he's like THE role model mann.
okay, time for some blog surfing. haha. got some tagging to do.. :) haha. ciao. x)
a shout of praise.
10:20 PM
okay this is for yesterday,
monday the 21st :)
went out to watch the exorcism of emily rose. it was beyond cool i tell you. i mean besides it being a scary story and all, but amazingly at the end of it all, i wasnt freaked out by it and i still functioning like a normal human being. i mean, there's still all the scary parts and all, like the part where they show her being possessed and all, by satan and all his demonic counterparts, but the good thing was the movie didnt end hanging there. WAHAAA. its like the first scary movie that didnt make me scared after. i still remember wishing stairs, it freaked me out so so much and i dint dare climb the bloody staircase for an entire week. haha. but anyhow. the story of emily rose is really a sad one. i give it 4 stars. definitely a show not to be missed. hehe.
went to claire's house for dinner, kaye and i. claire's house is beautiful i tell you.. haha. so many hidden corridors(okay actually there's just 2), great place to play hide and seek i tell you.. haha. then we went for carolling prac at church, hehehe. i tell you, i SUCK at singing in parts.. hopefully i'll get the hang of it again.. :S i guess if its a choir its not so bad, i just hope i stand somewhere between people who are singing in alto, so i can hear and somehow stay in tune.. hahhaa. more or less. ah well. :) i'm starting to enjoy brmc life. haha. the community is getting quite friendly.. good thing i guess. with camp coming up. MAN, i
cant wait. x) haha.
a shout of praise.
10:13 PM
Sunday, November 20, 2005:
you know, i just hate it how people dont keep thier word, when they say okay and then they go back on it and pretend that oh i never said it, or oh, i'm not going to get it for you anymore. i've had it for the past like 16 years of my life, (okay maybe not THAT long. its just since when i started learning how to keep MY promises) and its starting to REALLY get to me. how am i going to keep trusting people from now on.? i really hate this. and dont ever blame me if i do something against what you say i cant do, or if i lose my trust in you. i'm sorry, but i cant help it. really.
god if you're there, just help me not to do something that i will regret. something that isnt what i would normally do. help me not to lose my trust.
anyway. on to MORE postive stuff. today was totally a blast. (: wahhahaa.. went for 8.30 sunday sch and 10.30 shineforth today... and we watched part two of evolution during sunday school. hahhaa. waaa. that guy on the video is super corny and he keeps exaggerating. haha. ah well. (: we're going to have a class lunch tmr to socialise and make the class more united.. so we might go to our sunday's school teacher's house for lunch.. wheeee. i love brmc.. (: (: (:
and we (kaye claire me clem dean james brian kenneth mike drew beng) went for lunch and roamed about orchard for a while. ate a pastamania, haha. to kinda celebrate the ends of o's just that i dint really talk that much cos i was kinda tired and sleepy (i ONLY HAD LIKE 7 HOURS OF SLEEP LAST NIGHT LA!! :S ) then after the camp comm people went back to church for camp meeting, the rest of us (kaye me dean kenneth mike drew) went to jalan jalan until about 345 then we went back to church for games. haha. it was the most exciting captain's ball match i ever played.. (: hehehe. then this person who was in the hostel kept shouting vulgarities at us cos we were too noisy with the cheering and he couldnt study for his a's. sorry.. how are we to know right, and somemore he didnt have to keep saying f.u. right. heh. i was so shocked la.. :s
HEEHEHE. i cant wait till church camp! :D its gonna be so fun!! heheh. i mean like. its CHURCH CAMP! wheeee. so happy. i've got alot of stuff lined up for the hols and i cant wait. i think i shall add a calendar to my bloggiee.. hehehe.
need to go la. harry potter's on soon.. hahaha. i guess i'm more calm now. its good therapy, blogging is.. heh. (:
onward ho. econs tuition tmr. my first encounter with the bloody humans i'm gonna be taking next year. :S not looking forward to it. haha. but since its the necessity. oh well then, better to be positive about it. maybe i'll do somewhat better. hehe.
oh yes. i've fallen in love with fried mars bars and muddy mud pies. :) HEHE. they rawkk.
okay la okay la. i'm going going gone.. :D
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7:14 PM
Saturday, November 19, 2005:
ahhhhaha. wonderful. love the feeling how i get to come online everyday to blog again.. HAHAH. its simply.. smashing. hahah. i miss coming online.. and FINALLY i get to use the computer again. WHOOPIE-DOOO..
went for church movie night tonight. we have it like once a month at evangel, and always before it we'd have worship.. its basically some kind of fellowship night la. we watched stnad by me, this really old flick, but it was those kind of movies with a moral at the end of the story, and it was about friendship.. :D its great. wasnt much of a story line anyway. but the point is, anyway, the band had to play today so i went down at like, 4 pm to go have jam prac at church.. and i kinda got out of control again. i realise that you know, i kinda (and more often now) want things my way. especially like how things run and all. like lets say for example, we were practicing lord reign in me in church and somehow chris couldnt sing the song order right, as in, he wasnt really sure how the song goes. and i'm like no no no, you must sing it like this. and after that he looked kinda down and out. and seeing him like that made me feel guilty and sad of what i did. plus he's the worship leader.. man, its like a super bad habit i have, that i cant control. and i realise what i do is wrong abit too late. and it just smacks me right in the face.. and i get so irritated with myself. sorry chris.
reminds me of how hard it is trying to be the perfect christian, to carry god's grace and love around us, to clothe ourselves in his peace and splendor. i mean, like how do i do it man. i'm only human. and sometines its just so hard to act in the correct way, in a way that pleases god. but anyway. i think the best solution is just to give it all back to him and trust that he will make everything okay. even though it isnt. cos if you believe in his power, he can and will make things alright for me, in the way that makes him and myself happy. correct? through god, all things are (ALWAYS) possible. :)
ah well. THIS is my new blogskin. haha. does it look nice? i'd prob put in a better designed pic. cos i was in a rush last night and i had no ideas. so i just used something i did before. hahaha. oh well. better sleep early then. long day tmr. I CAN'T WAIT! haha. brmc, then lunch with the study group and then games PLUS i'm finally going to see my grandparents after like. what. 3 months? and i wonder if we're gonna continue with part two of evolution. haha. i dont even know what to wear and bring man! its like. no books to church! WAAAAAA. strange feeling. hehehehe.
haha. so yepp. cya. ;)
a shout of praise.
11:15 PM
HAHAHAHHAA.
IT'S OVER.
FOR GOOD. AND I AM SO ELATED!!!
hehehhehe. i think ive gone crazeee. so much so much has happened over this whole... DECADE that i dunno what to post already.. hahhaa. i think god has been too gracious already. gave me my support group, gave me a place to study, been through the whole journey with me, holding my hand and comforting me. waaaa. cant ask for anything better. :D and barker has been like the ultimate church cum study group venue la. haha. besides btp of course. (: ah well. feel more relaxed now cept that i'm really tired. slept late last night cos of history revision and woke up early to revise more.. its the last of it anyhow. hehehhe. chucked the book into the recycling bin. :D hahaha. felt so shuang just doing so.
just came back from cell at barker and supper at al-ameen, some indian place opposite beauty world. i'm in love with the milo dinosaur.. (: sahhhweet. hahha. cell was super funny. and i kinda realised that some people just have the gift for talking and interllect. like this girl called amanda. so amazed with her vocab and how much she can talk (as in sensible talk). no wonder she's in rg. haha. and cell was great too. learnt about like, heh, flirting and like, basically how carrying yourself is important cos of how people will see you.. and the important thing about it all is to just reflect god's goodness in whatever you do, so when people look at you they'll say, hey, you know, this is what a true christian is like. yeah. rather interesting. i love cells which do topics. i dont really understand books.
i have so so so so many things i want to and need to get done.
[x] getting christmas presents
[x] getting ready for aust ): ):
[x] econs tuition
[x] play and play and play
[x] dye my hair and highlight it
[x] get it straightened
[x] go for church camp
[x] catch all the movies i wanna watch :D
lol. there's a whole long list more, my brain's just too tired to think of it. haha. and and and!!! i'm going to BANGKOK!!!!! shopping here i come!! :D hahahha. i cant wait man. and the most exciting thing? KAYE'S FAMILY ALSO HAPPENS TO BE GOING DURING THE SAME WEEK!!!! ahhh. 18th to 22nd dec. OMG, so exciting. i so CANNOT wait. and then there's brmc youth camp, and carolling, and the christmas play. AIYOHHHH. so funnnn. this holiday is going to be SUCH a blast. (: fun fun fun la. HAHAHHAHAA.
which reminds me. i need to come up with a new blogskin. hahha. or at least improve on this one.. haha. its toooo plain. heh.
oh oh. p.s. its O's that are over. thats what i'm talking about by the way. (:
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12:45 AM
